People leave and it hurts. It shatters you. Sometimes so much that it takes a long time before you pick up each and every piece of yourself and get back together. Some leave after settling things amicably. Others just leave when they like. And then there are ones who leave you when you need them and you tell them that you need them. Their absence from your life leaves you devastated. You get lonely and start questioning your whole existence. And it’s justified (but not okay) because they were important to you and they just left. You wish they would come back and make things okay but they don’t and it hurts a lot. The longer you people were together, the more it hurts. And you cry and start the process of self-loathing. You start finding flaws in yourself and start wondering where did you go wrong because you had depended yourself so much on them that you feel worthless after they leave. You had put them before your needs and before yourself but now it’s time that you move on. Now is the time that you realize that you have to always put your passion and yourself before anyone. Because change is the only constant. And people do leave. They leave when you least expect it. They leave when you love them the most. And it’s a part of life. As much as you wish they come back and make things okay, you have to know that they are gone because they weren’t meant to come back. They left because they didn’t care enough. They wouldn’t have left if they cared or if this thing was meant to be. You have to accept their absence and move on with it. You don’t have to live with their absence, but live with the fact that it’s time to do something for yourself. Its time to call all those people whom you had put behind that special person. You have to go out and take a walk in the fresh air. You have to pick yourself up and get back to being Beyoncé again. You have to stand up and sing lemonade while sipping some. Even she was cheated on. But she didn’t let that bring her down. She made songs about it and became the second richest musician. This is the time when you have to learn your mistakes and love yourself. Go out. Have fun. And most importantly, take care of yourself. There are going to be times when a song or book would remind you of them. You will try to hold on to those gifts they gave you. But don’t hate them. Just learn to love yourself more than you ever did. If they were meant to be in your life, they will be back. If not, don’t force it. Let your life’s story go on the way it is going.
Since I was as young as five years old, I was told to sit with my legs crossed, because god forbid if anyone sees what’s between my thighs. ‘Sit with your legs crossed, because that’s how ladies sit’. And if you don’t sit like that then you are nothing but a woman of questionable character. Because who sits with their legs wide-spread? Sitting like that only means that you are inviting unexpected visitors to the most sacred place of your body. The place you should preserve in its purest form till the time you get married. Don’t wear your skirt too short because if you do then you will be asking for it. Because then you are a slut. A whore. A bitch. Do not leave the house after its dark because you don’t want to distract other travelers at night by your mere presence. If you step out of your house after eight in the evening, then be prepared to face the consequences. Because if you get molested or raped, it won’t be their mistake. It would be yours. Because you were out in the dark. Not their problem that they couldn’t control their hormones. And dare you speak loudly! Speak in a low tone; preferably just mumble. Because let’s be honest, it does not look decent when girls talk loudly. And do not even think of swearing. It makes you look so hideous. It’s against your feminine grace. And please for God’s sake just understand that if guys follow you around and harass you on the streets in the daylight, it’s their way of showing their unrequited love. They don’t touch your breasts because they want to sleep with you. No. what rubbish! They just do that because you were wearing a very provocative dress like sleeveless top. See! It’s your fault again. Like women! When are going to understand that rape will never be their fault. It is always going to be your mistake. We ourselves are responsible because at the end of the day who gives birth to them? WOMEN!
I am sickened. I am tired. I feel awful and miserable. I am heartbroken and desolated. I fail to understand that why every time I leave the house wearing a short dress there are always a pair of eyes following me. Or I should say my thighs. And if my thighs are not slim enough, I will be condemned. Why am I criticized for my chubby figure and why is my waist expected to like an hour-glass? Why is my voice only meant to quiver and why am I expected to remain pure for my husband? Why should I aspire to grow up, marry, settle down and have children?
Many girls won’t be able to relate to a lot of things written above because they are privileged enough to have parents who want them to first stand on their own two feet, earn, enjoy and then get married. They get to make their own life choices. They are not scared because they are emotionally supported. But there are about millions of girls out there who are lonely and scared. Who don’t have any support. They don’t have a roof over their head, let alone a sanitary napkin. They have to venture out alone in the dark to get food and water for their families. They come across vultures. They are hunted by them. Its 21st century, the age of internet and smartphones and still millions of girls live in a world where it’s still the medieval period, where they are still sold like goods and used like old clothes. Why? What did they actually do to deserve all this?
Change your attitude. Change your mindset. Change your perspective towards girls. Men, women both are human. Either both of them live, or no one lives. And since both have to live, why not start respecting one another? Why not start embracing them and their flaws? Women are beautiful, clever and all-rounders. They are more than what they are thought of. Just give them a chance. Just respect them for once.
Every tear went unnoticed,
Every wound went unattended.
She knew how bad it was,
But never did she ever question it.
Everyday a new brawl,
Everyday a new squabble.
Everyday was as though,
An invitation for a new battle.
She knew this was toxic,
Never paid attention.
For every touch was cosmic
Ignored the redemption.
The end would be painful
Little did she know.
But for the lovely present,
She let everything else go.
Its very weird. I dont know how a person can just unlove you in a week and forget everything that you both had done for months. Its very weird to see yourself working your ass off to make a relationship work, and at the end, you get to hear them saying that they are trying to love you. It very very weird to touch that person and feel everything. Very weird for them to touch you and feel nothing. Its very weird to love them with your heart and soul only to realise that they dont love you the way they used earlier. Its weird to see things not working out even when you try your best. Its weird to just cry alone and not have a shoulder for support.